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Having now had several days to process recent events and tragedies, I am starting to think about what could be had for me in The future shall I continue to fight my adversities. I wonder what I could do to improve my Life in everyway possible, how can I build up my finances, Be more creative and aggressive and stay stable emotionally. How can I battle my addictions and problems in productive ways? I often get verty motivated and inspired to take action and go after my dreams, when there is an obstacle in the way then I often get sidetracked and get off course, Causing me to get discouraged and Give up. I Can use my Pain and personal issues to make a difference and explore my creative side, after all arn"t there many who are so talented and gifted who have a darkness inside of them ?
I battle this doubting, fearful, timid, and whodini type of a Rob all the time but know that there is a beter way to live life, who wants to live constantly in Pain and Misery? ... (more)
"Self images are just images—ideas—but they can have a powerful impact on our lives and on our happiness. They can limit us by limiting what we are open to. If some activity doesn’t fit our self image, then we don’t do it. If we can’t see ourselves doing something, then we don’t do it. This is fine in many cases, but there are times when doing something that doesn’t fit our self image is exactly what we need to do to be happy or to learn something or to grow. Because we are creatures of habit and don’t easily take on new self images, we often choose to be true to our self image rather than stretch ourselves and experience something new.
Part of the difficulty is that we don’t even see that we have a self image. We have many self images, really. Different ones show up, depending on what we are doing and who we are with: Around our kids, the image of the parent we think we are shows up; around our spouse, the image of the spouse we ... (more)
Life has been up and down over the past few days to a week, I mean it is always a roller coaster ride but this has been more than usual. I sure hope that this last relapse with Drugs and alcohol was the Last as I do not like how it makes me feel and what I am like when I am high and/or Drunk. First of all it is meant as an escape from the problems that I face or the pain that I am going through but almost everytime it makes the situation turn from bad to awful. Not a solution at all. I keep thinking that What would have happened if this all had not happened to me, the mugging, drug use, depression and being stranded at the border, But I guess I cannot change what has occured in the past, Just move forward from here. I so wanted to see my friends and family, Now I just feel totally empty and Lost. I hope some good comes out of this and All that I can see that could be would be to finally get my shit together and stop using BPD as a crutch and get clean and sober once and for all, Realize ... (more)
Welcome To My Blog !
I created this Blog mostly for myself in my daily struggle with a dual diagnosis of Bpd aka borderline personality disorder and Crystal Meth Addiction. I created this page mostly for myself as I currently have no positive outlet for my emotions and Thoughts, But also for others Like me who also suffer from these two debilitating Conditions.
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